14th February 2009
This title came to me shortly after I called a female friend (i prefer not to call her my girl friend)on Valentine Day night. I just wanted to pop her a visit but realized she had a Valentine date. On any other day, she would have been available. Then I started wondering. Why do we move with the herd and why do we like quick fixes. Why can't we find that higher purpose?
Nobody wants to be left out of the show. I feel life starts when we can start feeling comfortable being by ourselves (like me right now on Val night). My current state is complicated though that is not what i say on Facebook.
We need to find ourselves a higher purpose. A purpose that has no link to dependence on others. A purpose that makes us stay awake no matter what. I feel that's what's missing in our lives. Everyone wants a relationship and a job that pays the bills. What happens when you loose either. Or worse both. Three years ago, I lived a life where I had all my friends around me and thought I was special. I realize you are as special as long as you are close by. You know how much life means when you go away from it all and have to be by yourself. That is what I am doing now. And the result has been scary. People forget you fast. That is why I don't take this Val thing seriously. It is all artificial. If you love someone, I suggest you ignore Val day. It makes the person look cheap. I see headlines like "Renew your love". Renew? As in it had expired or something. That is so so not right. You either love or not. I don't even know what Love means anymore.
Someone says I love you so much and a period of trauma and its all gone.If love was real, then there would be no breakups and divorces. Yet someone is doing that as I write (on Val day). You would be shocked how explosive their previous Val was. Something within us just craves for companionship as long as you can strike the right chords. Be you married or not. You always hear nice comments once you are within reach. It has nothing to do with you. I has much to do with your presence.
Life should not be managed because we seem to have no choice. We do have a choice and a higher purpose. Don't settle for companionship. That is your number 2 priority. Your number one is to find your life's true purpose. Take note of the word "Find". That way, you cannot feel alone. You have to keep on till you find it. When do you find it? When you are dead I guess.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
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