Am I confused or what?

This blog is coming about two months down the line. I was reading up some articles on my ERP dream and i bumped into articles by Nilesh on his experience as an Oracle ERP consultant.

I feel with him and i understand when he says he is not achieving what he chose out to do. I think I am in that phase right now (or I am getting there). I will know when it is time to move on.

I have been on this job for just over a year and I am bone tired. This is not what I bargained for and I really expected more for myself by now. When I say more, I don't necessarily refer to money. I actually earn 5 time my previous salary but the job is BORING.

Now I am thinking of starting an ERP consulting firm with a focus on Open Source software. The challenge I face now are many. Your family and friends object, you are not sure how things will turn out. But hey as Nilesh rightfully observed "you are damned if you do & damned if you don't".

Then I thought, should i return to my old job. the environment is conducive for my ERP plans and the system can easily help popularize its relevance. Or is that just an excuse for taking a previous job? I am not sure.

What happens to my potential investors? Am I running away from an opportunity that i doubt will materialize.

Really, i am confused as my title says. I am not even coherent. Basically, I am tired of this job, half of me is crazy about promoting Open Source ERP. Maybe the whole of me. Half of me says go back to your previous job and use the other half to chase the ERP dream. Men, the whole of me is just confused. i need to act FAAAAAAAAAST and take my decisions. J just passed. I am tired of all this talk about work plan. It is just a ruse to keep us busy. I have more gas in my tank than i am allowed to use.